3 wks and 6 days

That's how long I'm married to a wonderful man. Holding this next and new role in my life is certainly so much different. From being someone's fiance to a wife is a switch nothing to what I had imagined. I thought I was prepared, for sure. Just like I heard from every other females embarking the journey. But it's not til the night papa gave me away that I felt it all. It's all a rush of emotions. Everything is, that night. Nothing has prepared me for that night. No words, no amount of encouragements nor any advises I get prepares me for it. And I bet nothing would have.

Our daily life has changed tremendously, of course. Meeting people, introductions, lovely wishes and gifts. Interactions are certainly not the same. People start looking at an adult, leading your own life instead of trying to direct it to theirs. They are still full with endless advises, support and encouragements but in a different way now. Ways perhaps only a newly married couple would be able to understand. We always feel loved especially around our family, and this time it sure feels a lot extra. More over with an additional member to the family. *spread the love, spread the love*

We have turned into people with great responsibilities. With that word, unconsciously, comes confidence, willingness and hope. It all shows in our body languages with other people. We seem to notice that with one another. And I must say, I am outmost proud of my man. I didn't see it coming but it came at the most perfect timing. And so I begin to understand more of him. It's true they say. Every day, every step, every stage, every phase, we learn something more about the other. That's why we are never ready to get married. We can never be 100% sure especially nearing the day. There are only a certain amount of trust and belief that we must've hold onto at some point in our r'ship, to make it happen. Yeah, couple years before we're married, I can say I'm sure this is the one for me. I can bravely say I'm ready. Come few months before the wedding day, then all doubts and uncertainty sets in. All the 'IFs' starts filling my mind tremendously. Generally, reality sets in. If there are any hardships engaged couples had to go through, I'd say for us is this. Couple months before the wedding. That's where I struggled hard and asked for strength. Alhamdulillah, everything went beautifully and fine. Heart and health was all I asked for, remember? And those were just exactly what I get.

Was online with Suc last night. A new year, a new beginning. Need to send photos to her soon.

Am getting headaches often nowdays. I think today's due to sleeping without a pillow last night. Slept on dear hubby's arm instead hehe.. This morning on the way to work we came across this boy drinking his chocolate drink and made me wanting for one. Geez am almost turning into a slob! So we went down to ... and came across some free tasting cheeses and bread. YUM! I don't remember the name of the cheese now but we gotta find that cheese! YAY!

Scones

Baker's Delights choc mud scones and spinach, fetta and pesto scones when heated are absolutely marvelous.

Am not much of a scone fan. Just don't enjoy the texture of it. Nor am a sponge cake fan. After doing our weekly groceries we stopped at the bakery and bought those scones. Yummo!

Darling hubby ended up not going to work again today (boss takde, ceh!). I suppose it's due to my nasi lemak this morning for breakfast. My sambal was really HOT! We bought a new brand of dried chillis (the usual brand cannot be found anywhere now for some reason) and it's very superbly hot. My beautiful hubby here has sensitive tummy, though he loves spicy food.

It certainly is very cold here.

Baby

kak long's email early this morning..
"if you decide to have baby,
may he or she be as cute and inquisitive as this one.."
this one sure is, eh? =)

8 days

relief. sad. guilt.
if other emotions occur, it's temporary.

Back to work

Felt much much better and started work yesterday. It was such a hard decision to make that morning hehe.. but on the way to work I felt unusually happy. hmm.. maybe the thought of meeting everyone and the sights on the way to work suddenly made me excited. It certainly does have that sudden calming effect on me. Guess it's the mere thought of being back. Yes. Home =)

They were surprised of course. Especially when I had mentioned to be back on the 4th instead 16th =p Workload is not much. Updating with my projects etc etc. All good.


So what's the plan tday? Off to the long missed rundle and shop shop shop!! ok maybe not. i've definitely and successfully burn a LARGE hole in darling hubby's pocket. just the essentials now. just the essentials. ;)

Roasts

Tonight's the first time I cook dinner for us.
Balsamic-dijon maryland roast.
We dropped by the market just before it closed after work.

Much better

By today am still very cautious to how I'm feeling.
I take note every pain and movement.
So by the end of the day, the night before I close my eyes, I was still contemplating in my mind whether I should go in for work the next day or not =p

Hommie

yes.
we're back.
home sweet home.
indeed with massive entries soon.
for the meantime,
we're recharging ourselves.

Headache

This is terrible.
Bad, bad, horrible headache.
me need food.
more foooddd.

B.L.e.D

It starts today, tonight.
No wonder it was so bad the past couple days.
Ouch.

Went to Coles in the afternoon. Am sick of staying home. Managed to persuade beloved hubby to take me out!

Home.. so-sweet home

By the time we reach home yesterday it got worse. He had to go Coles by himself to get food for lunch yesterday. It just went from bad to worse til today. He skipped work and cooked, cleaned, unpacked, watched over me, making sure I don't lift anything over 500gms =D

The house was so clean and smelled so good when we opened the front door. Am so proud of him for doing such a great job at it. Soon this house will be filled with decos of mine hehe.. all mine!

It's so cold here. Winter is here.
My darling hubby being such a homely-type boy misses home cooked meals and surely is sick from eating-out for nearly a week! Since I wasn't feeling too good, he made nasi goreng with chicken. I on the other hand was craving for mashed potatoes! Weird eh?

GC Day 7

Back to Adelaide!
Flight at 11.15am.
We scheduled a cab at 8.30am and left!
Fish and chips at the airport (best ever!) and board the flight.

Feeling better =)
Can't wait to get home!

GC Day 6

We ordered in. room service *yay*
By night fall I was feeling a little better.
We wanted to go for Japanese but it's closed so we went for Thai.

It's at 7.15am so we left at 7.
Reached by 7.20am.
Smack 10 he said.
Went back by 10am.
And it started straight away.
Ouch.

GC Day 5

By today am getting more scared than ever. We spent the whole day out. He bought ice cream and we searched for a shop selling jumpers and long-sleeved tops. He got sick of the breakfast at the hotel so we went out for noodles. Only one food shop was open that morning.

Hunger strikes a little less aggressive today.

GC Day 4

We've came to the conclusion long before this trip not to go on any parks. It'll be just a relaxing day of "doing nothing" together. After the hassles and bustles we went through for the past couple months, we're in desperate condition to wind down and sit back. Just us.

It's the Queen's bday tomorrow.
And am getting hungry every second =p

GC Day 3

Not too well. Tired. Dinner at the Korean BBQ restaurant. Have not felt so stuffed before!!
Went for a long walk to clear our heads (and burn out the fat!). They're showing fireworks tonight.
With Bugs Bunny and Sylvester and the whole Warner Bros crew.

Our savior of the night.

There were an NZ couple on their holiday next to us sharing a pizza. It looked so yummy we had to go on a "On-the-Go" pizza hunt the next day. SO worth it! =)

GC Day 2

i don't remember what we did.
we had breakfast, rested, went for a stroll and back to the hotel.
dinner at McDs and to SP's bargain stalls.
spent almost an hour at this metal trick stall.

follow up and finalize at 3pm
discussed few things
called, appointments, arrangements
all set

GC Day 1

Arrived at 8.30am and checked in the hotel. Headed for pancakes across the road and took a stroll. Went back to the hotel, took a longggg nap then out to the nearest chemist for a hairbrush and essentials. Also, then to find food for dinner.

the day we found out accidentally approx. 5pm
then went for a walk, shared a chicken kebab overlooking the beach
talked abt it and came to a decision

today

ok.. i squeeze-in as much time i have to blog.. usually after running around multiple times a day and drop dead on the couch before nightfalls.. they should extend office hours to 10pm (hah.. i'm sure this statement evokes anger to many ppl hehee).. ok all docs for akad has finally settled.. next to worry is abt phg's approval.. mowkie's been jabbed and groomed.. she scowled at the other huge cat in the room til he pee-ed on the floor.. sighh.. ikut perangai siapa lah budak mowkie ni.. it's not that the big cat disturbed her or is in her way.. she had purposely went to him and scowled away.. poor big cat.. fit the harness on her and took her home 2 hours later.. then went to see the imam b'sar.. then to JAWI twice.. bought food.. elyn arrives..

now waiting for dear fiance to come over after his meeting at his office and off we'll go to get more things for the hantarans.. then tmrw to finalize things w the photographers.. thennnn off to phg..

sigh

oh met suk at ... during lunch! geez.. been so long!
ok yesterday ... said to papa, '.. nk dpt menantu lelaki sorang tak jemput' (sounds familiar?).. yea.. so i met his ppl and sent him a good card.. not that we don't want his presence, but he's not 'ordinary'.. there's so much things to change and consider if he shows up.. a big big chance he might be there when his PA said his schedule's clear on that day.. now everything's turned around.. i'd like to elaborate more if this is my diary.. anyway, always keep in mind our nawaitu.. nak bagi org makan.. nothing more than that.. when the nawaitu is right.. we hope for the best to happen..

insyallah

Reaching for you

10 days..
attires are being picked up together with 'bertandang's.. Daddy and Mommy emailed their flight itinery (YES! they're coming!! can you believe it??).. had such lovely evening yesterday with 2 dear friends in bangi.. gosh.. we've grown! there's 48 more bunga telurs to be done.. picked up our rings.. went for a final trial and final meeting with my makeup girl and picked up attires from my designer.. visited the dentist.. done my HIV test yesterday.. boo will be getting his letter tmrw morning.. hoping to see him tmrw or the day after.. got all my docs ready for papa n me.. updated the photographer.. sent most things back to phg.. met dodo's mom, had a gooooood long chat with do.. hung out with faiz.. babes.. our conversations.. that's what i missed most!

how do i feel..?
okay now the pressure's on.. less than 2 weeks left.. tyt just confirmed his attendance.. and it certainly doesn't help.. hhmmm.. lemme see.. so far, that's it.. oh and i've to make arrangements for my flower girls and boys.. hmm.. and everything else.. is out of my hands.. i just hope it all falls into place.. that much, i can do..

y'know.. with the guests papa's expecting, i don't even know quarter of them.. so, some familiar faces on the big day would really help.. if you ask me right now, i'm emotionally and mentally tormented..
but i put on a brave face everyday..
seek courage from every little piece of advice i hear..
seek ease from every little laughter i hear..
so they say it's not an easy road..
indeed..

but i won't deny this..
i am excited =)