Another step

So it's back to normal life again. Another episode closed.

My plants died. One small stalk of parsley trying hard to stand and be strong for me so I watered it today.

I actually have absolutely no idea what to do after this. My status; officially unemployed with lots of food (leftovers from my parent's stay). My options? HUGE! He has widened my eyes into so many choices and showed me how lucky I am. *y'know what, b. I still hope you're right*

Due to May's multiple invitation and the news recently labelling it as 'a waste of time', I had joined Facebook. Still have absolutely not much idea of how it works but slowly learning.

Maybe I should start experimenting new recipes and baking breads/goodies. Yea, that sounds good for a start.

Disclaimer

I have wanted to blog this for quite a long time actually.

This is to those who still doesn't get it.
What I write in here is what I want to write.
It comes straight from the head and heart as I lay my fingers on the keyboard.
It is my own expression of my thoughts, my feelings and my ideas.
This has everything to do with me but if you feel that it has something to do with you, then that's probably because it has to do with me and you.
I do not use names inappropriately or intend to influence other people to dislike anyone.

This blog is my creation, my world, my story, my words, my space.
Hence, this is my right.

Now, how about knowing your rights.
If you happen to not like what I write, then don't read =)

7 months

Still going on.. =)
Since we've the car, we bought cheesecake at the Cheesecake Shop only to disappoint ourselves.
Dear God.
i know i wish for many things.
and to add to the list,
today i wish i can open a cheesecake shop =)

They left

And he cried. Tears welled up in his eyes.
Waving his good hand at me.
I wonder if it's now that he felt the way I did when I left him at the airport with my beloved to come here.
So slowly he wiped his eyes with his fingers and went back to do what he has to do. Gave me one last good look and disappeared.

It is as if there's many things he wants to say.
And somehow couldn't gather the words together.

I know he heard our argument the night before. I know he understands what I meant. I know he knows.. we both know, what she did and is doing. Because that's when he stirred and stroke a conversation. That's also, after a long while before I tuck-in, when he told me what he thinks, as if trying to convince and tell that nothing else matters because he approves.

So I replied, 'ntah la, pa.'
'Kenapa ija kata mcm tu?'
'Takde apa, pa.'

I didn't want to continue. I didn't have to.

Colors

My second colors begins =)

psst.. happy grad day!

l.o.v.e

i am surrounded by people who loves me =)

A Re view

August is here and soon it'll be September,
then with all bustles of puasa and raya,
the year comes to an end and a new year begins.
Here I am, close to reaching 26,
had started this year with something new.
Life changing moments.

The thing is, I do feel like a different person.
Interests change,
priority shifts,
perception deter,
values strengthen,
responsibility increase.

Maybe this is it.
This is the new step.
After all.. I am about to enter a new world.

Perhaps I am ready after all. *cross fingers*

News

So it's all good now =)

Mushrooms

We absolutely LOVE mushrooms.
It's in our grocery list every week.

Enough of Thai cuisines, we viewed Italian cuisines now. So far only 2 places high in our list.

I tried my hands at making 'buah melaka' aka 'onde-onde'. I was nervous cos I like them soft and gooey but I'm afraid it would turn out hard. So I was careful making them. And guess what? The texture turned out nice, soft, gooey and green, but I've put in too little palm sugar in the centre. Sigh.

Bustle

Woke up today with a plan in mind.

Sitting by myself relaxing in a coffee shop at a shopping mall far away from town, letting my mind wander and go off as far as it want to, while watching people pass by.

I was still dreaming.

So today went rather the opposite. Somehow my beloved decided to ditch work and spend time with me off in my far-away land. I need a 'new' environment (as if Sydney and Perth is not enough, eh? hehe). So we went to my far-away land, had late lunch and binge on junk with Simpsons movie. Being a fan of the Simpsons series, the movie was rather disappointing. To me, the least. They could and have done better. But we had good laughs.

When we reach home, I called home and told them the news. We watched some TV then headed for pizza and few drinks.

Trying to swallow my guilt.

Spring Clean

My poor beloved had been complaining so much about the state of it when I was away.
I've returned few days ago and so today without planning, we did something about it.

It was spring clean, indeed!

We cleaned the kitchen and living room upstairs but with no doubt it'll get back to its original state in no time =)

L.i.f.e

Life is a Mystery
to be lived
rather than
a problem to be solved

-Assagioli

Quick update!

Just returned from Sydney a couple days ago.
To Jules, Sylvester, Jack, Dong-u, John, Sarah, and all occupants of Morling College, thank you for making my stay in Sydney so memorable =)

Now am back to get some work done before leaving for Perth tmrw. Tomorrow?? So soon? Yikes!

*I'm into Korean food now. Very, very, healthy and yummy. No wonder hardly there be a fat Korean.

6 months..

6 months..
6 months?
6 months!?
6 months!!
half a year!

We talked the other night. How we survived 6 months.
That's a pretty long time, eh?
And still going on strong.. =)

Despite what we went through, the people we encountered,
those happy for us and with us, those unable to be happy for us and with us,
those wants us together, those wants us separated,
those trying to get us back together, those trying to separate us,
those we love, those we hate, those we put up with, those who put up with us,
those we absolutely adore, those we absolutely ridicule.

Thank you for all your support and help to make us stronger,
and I would also love to thank those with the criticism and effort to separate us, which has also made us even stronger.

Our celebration

We celebrated a night early this time. I've sessions running this weekend and leaving on Monday.

Star of Siam became our choice tonight. Since it's been almost half a year, we want to make sure we get good food and good night out. And in deed, it was.

*Happy half-year Anniversary, b*

Missing You

I am missing those times when I can get up, search for new recipes and baking ideas, and start making them.

I am missing those times when I actually have to think why I have to get up.

I am missing those times when I can blog whenever a thought pass by my mind or simply just able to spring myself onto my blog and write whatever in my mind at that second.

I am missing those times when I am able to 'steal' pictures from my beloved and post them on my fotopages just because I've no other pictures to upload from.

I am missing those times when I only listen to the front door slamming shut indicating it's time to water n nurture my plants (they all are in the process of dying from the frost now)

I am missing those times when I am able to cook every single day for my baby and wait for him to come home.

I am missing those times when I can cook lunch and bring over to him at lunch time and we'll be having lunch together.

I am missing those times when weekend nights especially becomes our special 'outing' and we'd go bars or enjoy dinners trying out new restaurants.

I am missing those times when I am able to look through recipe magazines for trying out new recipes and writing down ingredients to buy on our weekly grocery shopping.

I am missing those times when my thoughts are all mine and I can boggle them up and turn crazy or throw them to my baby for a late night discussion.

I am missing all these times *sigh*

Now, I'm living responsibly with work and work and work, saving people's mental health.
Sometimes I wish I can simply prescribe everyone with Prozac.

I tried.
and try and try and try
and then going on trying and trying and trying

sometimes I need to stop.

Road Trip Part Two

This time we went up north!
Again, more input will be inserted soon =)

Cramps

He stayed home from work.
I had bad bad cramps.
Worst ever!
Maybe it's the lemonade.

He made hot chicken soup.
*luckiest girl on earth, i reckon* =)