Sorrow

Hubby's out of town for a week this week hence it's just Mommy and lil Bugaroo at home. I'm loving every moment with my lil one at home. Such a girlie-girl week for the both of us. :) But we both miss Daddy terribly, terribly so come home quick Daddy!

Though not too quick because something dreadful had happened while he was away. Tuesday I took a day off to settle some 'moving' errands. Earlier during the day I had sent the lil one off to her lovely daycare for some fun and headed off to the post office to renew my long expired driving license. Yes, I've been driving thousands of miles everywhere all these while with an expired license. It had been so for 3 months! So I wasn't too optimistic about finding a car space on that absolutely ridiculous parking lot, but surprise surprise! With only 2 rounds I found one! Put on an hour worth of parking ticket on the windshield, I trot off to the post office not knowing it takes less than 5 minutes to get it all done. So wanting to enjoy the precious, precious car space I decided to take a walk and visited some shops. Finished shopping and with only few minutes left before my parking ticket expires, I hopped into the car and started reversing. BAM! I hit the truck on the opposite side. It was jammed so the truck was lining up when I was too engrossed looking over on the other side for incoming cars.

So you see, I'm not too enthusiastic about hubby's arrival. I've yet to tell him what had happened. I've broken the signal light and dented the far top end of the backside car. I hope it's not too much to pay for. Sigh..

Last night my Abg Pu came over. I donated over our dining chairs and now our little dining table fit for 4 people. It was our first dining table bought when we moved into our tiny one bedroom apartment. Apart from that, we talked til midnight. I love our conversations. It is all about life, love, pain and sorrow. Everything that hurts us most. I always end up the one with tears. Sometimes him. Having lived almost a decade more than I he had witnessed so many things in my life. The good, bad, ugly. Mostly bad and ugly. Because no one else seen it. And those whom were supposed to protect either pretended not noticing or was just not around. So we shared our stories and let off our steam. No doubt it had in turn change who we are and built our character. But I am never thanking "you" for it. We had learnt it the hard and painful way and it had altered 'who' we really are. I had to re-learn how to love myself for who I am. I do not feel stronger nor wiser with what 'you've' done. It is only those little moments when Abg Pu comes and we share our thoughts, that is the only time I feel I am stronger than I think I am. One for our pain. One for our sorrow.

Broga Camp

It is still a crazy March month. We have moved home though it is hard to call the new place home at the moment with all boxes and papers strewn all over the floor! I feel there's not enough time in a day to get everything sorted and organized at the moment. Aghh!!

Apart from that, couple weekends ago there was this camp I was invited to give a presentation to and it went pretty awesome. I've never screamed so much in my life! It was for a day and a half but everything was a fresh breath of air for me. Broga is famous for its hill-hiking but unfortunately due to some health issues, I didn't participate in that which is rather unfortunate because I'm regretting it now :( There was flying fox which I didn't get a chance to participate either. Kayaking, cycling, rafting, and most water-based activities which I managed to join in was really cool.

 The campers :)

Drenched! Was thrown into the lake!

Absolutely love this pic with the adorable Nini :)

I had never screamed so much in my life! It was so much fun! And yes, I was thrown into the lake by my own boss (how nice of him). We had balloon fights for him and he had attacked me multiple time with them. You see, he's resigning by the end of this month and all these was planned to attack him with them! Love it! I attacked him twice with surprise and he chased me all around the basketball court! Then while I was planning another attack, he lifted me up and threw me into the lake :S

Well boss, hope you had fun :)

I had also given a talk on Dr Gary Couture's personality model. Everyone loved it!
Besides being hugged by messy sloppy muddy Kevin after I had taken a shower, I had the ultimate best times with my fellow colleagues. I feel we've bonded further and certainly know each other better.

We also had some mamak session at midnight and shared some stories here and there. It was great weekend fun :) I think I shall organize a small outdoor activity with few friends to Broga Camp and maybe get the opportunity to try out their flying fox and hike up their renown hill!

Pillar of Strength

I am back from a short meeting.
I don't know where to put my words or thoughts to so I found my way here.

My immediate awesome boss is resigning. He'll be leaving end of this month.
Quite frankly I feel angry more than sad and sudden loss. I am angry at myself even more. I need to stop and think for a minute.

There were a few times where jobs were offered to me and I had not accepted them. Partly, is because of him. I like his style, the way he works, how he treats us etc etc. It is very.. westernized. I suppose. Or at least it is the way I believe it should be. Open, honest, purposeful and trustworthy. No dramas, no nitty-gritty details, doubtful and taking into consideration of everything.. or everyone. And I like that style I think not many managers in this country operated the same way.

You see, I am very much an independent worker by myself. I know my goals, purpose, what I have to do, what not to do and how to go about things. I am a boss of my own. Hence the way I work accommodates me. I am perfect working independently. So I very much prefer not to have another person micro-managing me, looking over my shoulders, pushing or pressuring me into some task. I work at my own pace and get the job done.

So you can pretty much understand my frustrations when he said he's resigning. It sure bothers and more over hurt. I was inspired and into thinking he might want to or will be moving up forward. And I am working at his pace so he can or will be able to bring me up with him. Unfortunately, he's leaving.

Now, I am just sad :( sigh..