Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Break of Dawn

Can't sleep.

Perhaps knowing that it'll not be the way that is dreamed of all these while. There won't be 'the' celebration. It'll be more of 'her' event.
At times, I don't think I can handle the pressure.

Yes, I am afraid of commitment.
What if we fall out. What if he can't stand living with me. What if I can't stand living with him. What if suddenly he wakes up and realizes this is not how he wants his life to be. What if I experience a change of heart. What if I can't trust myself.
Yes, I am playing the 'what if' game.

Maybe it's not just that.

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